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Aug 11 2009

Yes, I am still starting… Do you got a problem with that?

Published by Scratch under Season II

By Matt DeReno
On The FFD

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PITTSBURGH – Okay, I am still wallowing in a torpid stretch. Well, I feel like I am coming out of it, but I have my doubts. I have a lot of doubts lately. That sucks. I always thought the older one got the more confident one would become about many things relating to life. But, I am beginning to get a sense that the older the get the less I ever really knew to begin with. This has the potentially to both liberating and a major bummer. Lately, I think it bummed me out a bit. But, now, I think I can move forward with the comfortable knowledge the cocksure young man I was in his 20s, was simply full of shit. But, no sooner than I won’t give myself any credit for what I am doing, I’ll try anyway.

I do know that there is work to be here. I have held on in the past month or so, but man I think it is time to get back to being energetic and determined, driven and healthy. I did it for several months. There should be no reason I can’t do it again. In fact, this time, I want to make it all stick.

I know what my challenges are in health. Sometimes I drink way to much beer. Sometimes I eat way too much food. Not all the time, but enough I want to curtail both. I also know that every weekend I should be prepared for some kind of event. I really don’t think it is the Holidays that kill me – it’s the days between the next one. So to it could be said of this summer. Vacation didn’t really do me in – in fact I was relatively happy about my health – all things considered – down there in Myrtle Beach. However, the days after we got back – killed me.

So these are the things I need to focus on as I continue into another season. Where this is all going – I don’t know. But, I will give it another try. There is just enough time left in the year for one full regular season. Sounds perfect for me.

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